Is this thing on?
Alright, here we go.
I have a love-hate relationship with my impulsiveness. It’s what brought me here, to 3:36 AM, the wee hours of August 31, 2018 … typing this entry. I have been putting off doing the whole blog overhaul, finally gave in about a year later, lost most of my photos, all my pages, comments.
No regrets, I guess (although I did love how I composed my past ABOUT ME page), I guess it’s time to turn over a new leaf. A lot has changed since then.
I used to think I hated the cold, but when I flew to the U.K. for the first time in December 2017, I fell absolutely in love with it, especially seeing my first snow (at 31 years old!), I was so dumbfounded I couldn’t even cry. But I sat in my Aunt’s bed listening to Sufjan Stevens’ Mystery of Love and it was one of those quiet moments I felt most alive. It was at past 7 in the morning. Goes to show that there are things we’ll constantly learn about ourselves.
I’ve been living by myself with my baby Catto, Gringgo for the past two years in the U.A.E. For someone who lives with Depression (who also gets the occasional Anxiety Attack), it hasn’t been the easiest, but it’s been empowering. I may be married, but spending this much time with myself taught me to love myself the most, flaws and all. Nothing like embracing the things that make you imperfect.