It’s been awhile, hasn’t it? It wasn’t on purpose, trust me. The whole blog revamping thing came over me, not impulsively — in fact, the thought’s been standing outside my brain door for almost a year now, but I keep putting it off due to budget constraints, which I’m still strictly under, by the way, just YOLOing through it, and then getting anxiety attacks because of how careless I’ve been in the spending department. Ugh.
OH WOW. So much has happened in the past two weeks I couldn’t even put to words. I am very grateful that God’s blessed me with days like that, days like these, giving me the chance to recollect myself and … as that Hamilton track I used as my post title says, catch a breath, take a break. Definitely wishing you are all doing well, especially that INFINITY WAR’s out. I’m watching it in 12.5
This is me today. Blog is up and running, ROUGHLY. I kid you not, but I have been sitting in front of the PC since 6 in the morning. It is now 3:00 P.M. No regrets (just love for my hard work) (ew, I don’t like Katy Perry anymore). Thank you Mij for helping me out! After I bombarded him with questions, I tried my best to understand XML, I tried googling LESSONS, YouTube videos,
I have so much time to myself these days. I couldn’t be any more grateful for it. I have more hours to look out the Window, to stare at myself in the Mirror. Watch my Cat sleep. I would lie in bed and be all present. Be there. And yet, not be. But in a long time, it doesn’t really scare me anymore. I’m not afraid to wander off. I’m not afraid of the silence.
I don’t know where to begin. That’s the best way to begin a blog post, because it gets the whole awkwardness of … whatever this is, out of the way. I think. Dawson’s Creek is playing in the background. Gringo is on the bed, he was snuggling with me earlier but we got into a fight and I ended up with a small scratch on my leg. GREAT WORK, MEREDITH. I WAS JUST TRYING TO
It doesn’t make a difference. Who is here today is gone tomorrow. As I said in the past, we all lose people. Some we lose to death, some, we lose to life. What difference does it make to have someone so close by, only to find out they’ve moved cities the next day, or don’t, but cut you off. It’s like a wound that is constantly cut open again as soon as it’s
Taking a break from all the drama (publicly), and since I am also, taking a break from posting anything on my Twitter, Instagram and Facebook (well, except for the songs I’ve covered), thought of uploading these photos here. I was treated to this yummy yummy Kit-Kat cake from Saadeedin earlier. It was so good! Some of today’s acquisitions. FINALLY, a sculpting kit from MUFE! So excited to start using it tomorrow.